Depression.

I'm still working through the trauma that was Liam's birth. I thought I was ok until my SILs asked me about it last month. I made it through the story, but cried all the way home. And ever since then, I've been scared of everything. I don't leave the house unless Kaylee needs to be at school/swim lessons, or I need to go check in on my grandparents. I don't exercise anymore (as of June) for a completely off topic reason. This has led to joint pain and muscle weakness, making me pretty pathetic. I have no motivation to do anything around the house. I'm scared I'll become pregnant again, yet Brian continually forgets or puts off calling for an appointment. I'm scared to get fixed because the whole procedure, while fairly simple, involves me going to the doctor... and I just can't face them right now.

All of this popped up in the last month. So now I'm fearing PPD.. or PTSD since it doesn't feel like a typical hormonal depression like I've experienced in the past. I've never been scared to leave the house. I've never been unmotivated to do anything for so long.