Defeated.

There is seriously nothing worse than coming home from a completely awe inspiring experience thinking I'll be able to get this book biz off the ground and in the right direction only to have your husband not give a rats ass.

So over this.

StoryTime

This was a pretty big hit. Granted, only 3 moms of the 15 showed up.. but that's ok! It was the perfect size. The kids listened as I read two books to them and then did their craft.

It took about an hour and a half of the day... and somehow it's already 2pm. I should do this every week... LOL

At this point, I'm going to just try and shoot for every other week. But I genuinely had a good time. So now to plan more projects for the next Storytime. OH and I booked a party off of it! Score :)

Social Life... Hahahahahaahaha

This post is inspired by my Canadian friend over at Mommy by Day.

Her post today was basically about saying a total of about 5 words to adults all week. Oh, how I can relate.

My week will look like this:

** Yesterday, declutter house while entertaining an almost 3 year old and 14 month old. This was all to prepare for a house keeper to come and actually clean the house because I would much rather be anywhere but inside my home.

** Today, wake up, do dishes, get kids dressed/fed.. go to swim lessons. After swim lessons, we went to my grandmother's for lunch. Then we came home so the house keeper could get in. While the house keeper was here, I got a solicitor.

Here's my social life. I spent about 30 minutes talking to this guy about how there was no way I would ever use them. This is how desperate I am for adult interaction. I talk to solicitors.

** Tomorrow, last minute prep work for StoryTime. Here's hoping people show up. However, I secretly want no one to come. I hate reading aloud. Much less to a bunch of kids. And their parents. I imagine the rest of the day will be spent by the kids watching TV (really???) and me curled up in a corner crying because things didn't go exactly to plan. I'm so predictable.

** Thursday will most likely be spent by not leaving the house again. It's also our anniversary, which means nothing other than we may tell each other how we wish we could go out to eat... alone.

** Friday - repeat Thursday, minus the anniversary wishlist convo.

How do I not go insane? Hmm... let me get back to you on that one.

Birthday...

That moment when you want to tell your baby brother happy 30th birthday, but know you can't because he hates you for calling him out on all his (and his wife's) rudeness...

Life is funny sometimes... ya miss someone who was so awful to you... why? The last 3.5 years haven't been great with this relationship. And for once, I can honestly say, it wasn't my fault and there's zero way it could be.

1st Day of Summer

Yesterday went fairly well. The plan I came up with was kind of simple. The time Kaylee is normally in school, she should have lots of structure. The time out, is more free.

So, MWF, we will sing songs, color lessons, practice writing, practice letter sounds, practice figuring out the first letter of words, practice our ABCs, 123s and Spanish numbers (which will eventually expand once *I* learn more Spanish), I'll read, we'll make lunch together, etc,etc.

It's quite a challenge with an infant in tow, but yesterday went well.

Tuesdays are swim lessons and my grandmother's. After naptime, we'll probably go outside to play or to the farmers market.

Thursdays are up in the air at this point. Maybe that will be another pool day... maybe it will be a park day... maybe it will be a travel day. I don't know. We can't really afford for me to go anywhere, so I doubt I'll leave the house to go very far.

I'm also setting up StoryTime at my house/park for every other Wednesday. The hope is to read a few stories to the kids and do an activity. The first one is the 5th, so we'll see if it works out how I want.

I'm still working on that other site, but more consulting on where things are, etc...  I've been reading a lot of code lately so I'm feeling a bit better about my abilities... I don't foresee taking on something this challenging again for a while though. It was the extra menu that threw me. Two menus are fine... but through in a third and my brain explodes. Dumb.

Here's hoping the Dog Days of Summer keep on being nice to me. I need a break. :)~

Free Time...

I don't get a lot of free time. I think that's a common statement from most moms. Especially SAHMs. We are with our kids 24/7. There's no clocking out. Sometimes there's the wish to go back to work. Actually, I think I make that wish daily. If only to get out of the house by myself for a little while. If only to talk to an adult. And not about poop. I personally hate conversations about bodily functions and don't understand why it's a frequent topic among SAHMs. Do we really have nothing better to talk about?

Tomorrow is the last day of school for Kaylee. I don't feel as ill prepared anymore though. I have a ton of coloring pages for different lessons. Plus all the normal activities we already do. I'm sitting up Storytime where I'll read to kids as well as do a few activities (mine, the neighborhood's, my friend's.. comment if interested.. the first one will be June 5th at 10am)... I'm not sure how long it will last.. I'm thinking an hour.. maybe two... doesn't matter.. do any of us really have plans? Stay all day for all I care... :)

I also finally setup a house keeper. I thought the motivation to clean would last, but it didn't. I just hate doing it but it makes me nauseous not to, if that makes any sense. So, yay.. we'll be more broke, but my house will be clean!

Today, my MIL picked up Liam. She'll pick up Kaylee tomorrow after school. They won't come home until 6pm Saturday. Brian set it up... granted it's because he wants to go to the ranch, but whatever. He never sets up anything unless I tell him, so it was a nice surprise.

First of all, it's been months, if not over a year since Kaylee and I have had alone time. She went down for a nap at 1. Liam was picked up shortly after. By 3, I went to try and wake her. *snore.......* She wouldn't wake. 3:30... *snore.....* Forget it. I was antsy. I wanted her to get up so we could go do something. I was thinking snowcones.. or the community pool.. anything. She didn't wake until 4:30. And by then, traffic is too bad to leave... so we just went out back and played in the water. I played with her, which I usually can't do because I'm too busy trying to make sure both kids stay in the same general area since I'm deathly afraid of little kids being around water without supervision. If it weren't the last day of school, I would keep her home tomorrow so we could go to something, but I just can't do that to her.. or her teachers. They are a trip with how much they love her.


I'm trying to get Liam's room painted. It'll be a dark grey. I hope to save enough money to get the same kind of rug Kaylee has in her room. It's a faux silk... luscious.. Liam loves her rug. We have a few others as well that are the same. They are a big hit. Soft and cuddly... Anyway.. I have most of it taped off, so while Kaylee is at school, I'll get as much done as I can. Thank goodness for borrowed power rollers!

Tomorrow night, I'm kidnapping my neighbor for drinks and dinner. Then Saturday, we're going to scrapbook with another friend. It's like I have a social life or something. Odd. I'm pretty sure I'm going to need all of Sunday to recover from all the adult activities I get to do this weekend. :)~

Happy Mother's Day!

We typically do not celebrate Hallmark holidays... no Valentine's or the parent's days.. but this year, I needed a real break. My bff and I decided we were going to go get a foot massage and mani/pedis. The foot reflexology was more of a whole body reflexology. And for $25 for an hour, it was AMAZING. I didn't care much for the mani/pedis... scrubbing my already sensitive feet with a coarse OMG I'M GOING TO JUMP OUT OF THIS CHAIR IF YOU DON'T STOP brush hurt.. my paint chipped almost immediately after I left.. this is why I don't get color on my nails. I can see where half of the clear coat is gone.

But.. it was still a few hours out. Plus, I forgot my cell phone, which means I was completely disconnected from the world and my "you can't leave the house unless I can talk to you 5 minutes after" husband... it was nice. Of course, when I did go home to get it, I had several messages and missed calls from him. Ugh. Seriously... I was gone for 2 hours.

Later that evening, I went over to my bff's for a 31 party. Somehow her friends are either much cooler or much more rich than my friends. She had a handful of people and a $1200 party. Mine barely broke $200, and half of it was ME.

Yesterday was the real treat though. My wish was to be left alone unless I came to them. This didn't really happen, but for the most part , it was nice... I played in the garden all morning and then spent the afternoon in bed watching TV. Brian made dinner and I painted for a little bit before bed.

The common areas of the house are ALMOST done... The living room is done as is the entry room from the garage. The entry all just needs the actual walls painted. I've done all the edges. There's two more sections, but I will probably wait until later this summer to do them..

Wednesday, I'm having dental surgery. I'm scared to death. Two kids. Only one day of help. Ugh. Here's hoping I can take the meds because if I recall they make me drowsy. :(