Anxiety

I'm not sure which is worse... the anxiety of having an SCH and the possibility of pre-term labor (even with it being resolved, it supposedly made the placenta weaker), or going to and possibly past 41 weeks and need to be induced.

Today wasn't a bad day. We went to the park and played. Had lunch and a nap. Then Brian came home and we went outside and played some more. Dinner and baths. She's in bed. So Brian and I have been hanging out outside most of that time since.

I'm bored and restless. This baby needs to come so we can all move forward with life. I'm tired and cranky. No more jokes, Lil One... please.

The Joke is on Me.

I have come to the conclusion that this baby is a major jokester and will not make his/her arrival until April Fool's Day. I've started contractions twice, each session lasting several hours, only for them to stop. Since I finished all of my plans/commitments up at 38 weeks, I vowed to sit and do nothing but relax or try to get this baby to arrive. Nothing is working. I've mowed and edged the lawn, which is more exercise I've gotten in months. I hurt so badly after that though because of my leg injury and round ligament pains. I ate an entire flippin' pineapple. I drank cinnamon until I smelled like it. I've had reflexology massages. And acupuncture. I've sat on that stupid ball and done yoga to get the baby into position. When the MW checked me, she didn't want to strip my membranes because "I'm just right there..." It was something I wasn't sure I wanted done anyway, more so because I've heard it's not pleasant and I don't care for unpleasant things.

So, Sunday. This is when I predict I will have an 8.5lb baby. I always said I wanted an April baby. It's looking more and more like I'll get my wish. If the baby doesn't come Sunday, then we'll go in Monday to run a bunch of tests to prepare for induction. This is definitely not something I want. It down right scares me.

Until then, I'm giving up on waiting at home for contractions to start and am going to start living a bit again. I'm bored out of my mind, as is Kaylee. So, off to Safari Champ to use our coupon for free play, then maybe back for lunch and more playing in the backyard while I pull weeds.

40w5d

4 Days

...Overdue... still pregnant.

Tax Refund...

The interest free loan we give to the government because we didn't calculate what we should have taken out properly... Boo...

The only advantage to this... we get a nice chunk of change to rebuild our savings a bit and to do some projects around the backyard that we've been wanting to tackle since we moved in.

These projects = finishing Kaylee's play area and installing the garden for the Fall. I'm super stoked about this. We have the border for Kaylee's play area installed, so all we need is the 8-9 yards of playground mulch to fill it in... and swing set anchors before Brian flips her over the top (joke). And the garden... well.. it's a patch of weeds at the moment. So we need the border and the garden soil. This should give us plenty of time to plan out the Fall garden and maybe even get a compost pile going.

I've been hoping to give Kaylee a safe place to play since she's a flippin' monkey. And this way.. she can play while I sit with the baby and watch. I can have friends over with their kids. I'm hoping for a grand ol time!

The veggies and fruit and herbs... omg... sooo hoping to do something like this: gutter garden on the back fence as well.

40 weeks, 2 days

Still pregnant.

Bluebonnets!

Ok. We got the pictures. Now I can have this baby, right? :p

Due!

I suspect today will come and go without a trip to the hospital. I had some contractions yesterday that actually woke me up, but when I walked to the restroom and back a couple hours later, they stopped. Stupid BH. Other than that, I'm trying to remain calm and patient. I've told myself it's less than 2 weeks no matter what.

Today... we hope to go on a bluebonnet hunt to grab a few pictures with Kaylee in them. There are a few patches around but I'm not sure if they are accessible to the public. I'm very sad about the invasion of the Bastard Cabbage. No one is saying how this plant spread so quickly or how it even got here, but if the Wildflower Center doesn't do something quickly, we'll lose all of our wildflowers... including our State flower, the bluebonnet. Granted, they can replant all of them if they have seeds to do so, but it was sounding like they don't have the supply. Bummer.

I was already going to plant Kaylee a flower bed. I guess I'll buy extra bluebonnets so we'll have somewhere to take pictures. My brother's backyard also has a lot of room in the back... maybe I can convince them to spread some seeds.... who knows.